Dear Hannah, how are you? What are you doing these days?
Today as I was going through the invoices for payment, there was one particular invoice that required your name to be the reference of the payment. When I saw the word HANNAH, I choked up and started tearing. I thought with time, things would get better. I guess, losing you doesn’t get better with time. The longing that you’ll be here with me or that what if you were here with me seem to never go away. I looked at your ashes today and just wished so hard that you were here with me. Sometimes when I look at Joel, I would imagine what life would be like with the three of you hanky panky-ing together all day long.
Life has been busy the last few months and I am finally starting to be able to breathe a little at work. It is still extremely busy and I work till midnight most days. It is really a different ball game when you are running your own business. Joel and Zac have been to the shop many times now. If you were here, I guess the sound level would be even higher, but I wish for that although I am so scared of sounds these days. I just wish you were here Hannah.
Having you as part of the business, really reminds me of you. I am glad that things turned out this way...because you will always be a part of me, a part of my life...and getting reminded of you always warms my heart...because I know that I have a precious daughter too...
Missing you girl,
Mummy
