1st September 2015 - Sleep over at Jerome's

In the midst of all the chaos, Serene and Weihao kindly offered to help us with Zachary for a night.

Zachary had his first sleep over at a friend's house. He had heaps of fun.

First they had dinner, then they took a bath in the bath tub where Weihao washed their hair and they bathed themselves in the tub, then brushed their own teeth and went to bed.

In the middle of putting themselves to sleep, Jerome suggested a snow party. He destroyed a pillow and managed to fill the whole room with snow, I.e. cotton from the pillow destroyed. According to Zachary, Jerome asked him if he wanted to have snow in the room and they did. They didn't get a scolding fortunately for the kind Serene and Weihao but just a laugh of helplessness to the situation. The poor helper sure had lots to clean up the next day.

They chatted throughout the night till they fell asleep.

I'm happy that in the midst of everything Zachary still managed to keep his happy self which is something I wish for him forever - happiness.

Thank you Serene and Weihao.

4 April 2015 - Found out that I'm carrying twins...

We just came back from a Japan tour yesterday. I was so exhausted during the trip and we walked so much it wasn't funny. Overall it was a good trip minus the fatigue.

When we touched down yesterday, I was feeling awful due to the turbulence in the plane. We were sitting right at the last row of the plane and it was swaying left and right plenty of times. I felt so nauseated during the whole plane ride that I didn't even eat my meal in the plane. Bad idea as that meant that I had to suffer even more headache due to gastric pains.

After touching down, we headed straight home in a cab and went out for dinner. While talking to the friendly cab driver about Lee Kuan Yew and his policies and all, I felt that I was gonna puke. I quickly asked for a plastic bag and out came my guts and everything that could come out of my empty stomach.

At dinner I felt a strange gush below and wasn't feeling that great. Got home, was preparing myself to shower to find that I was bleeding bright red blood. I immediately told Dave. Zac was such a sweet boy as when he heard me saying that he came and asked "are you alright mummy?". After phone calls to the hospitals we ended up driving to Kandang Kerbau Hospital.

The doctor did a scan and said that everything looks ok and it's quite normal to bleed in early pregnancy. She showed me the baby's heart beat and that was my first encounter with the little one.

Next day, which is today, I called my doctor to find out if I should come in to see him. Scheduled an appointment and went straight to see him. More than an hour of wait as usual.

When I finally saw the doctor I was rather nervous. I want to know that the baby is doing well. I want to know that everything is fine. Doctor did a scan and did a measurement. Baby measures at 6 week 3 days today. He also measured the heart beat. They were beating at 150bpm. After I got off the scanning table, he then mentioned that I'm carrying twins. I was elated. Excited. Happy. Thrilled. I couldn't believe it as the day before the doctor only saw one sac.

Now we pray hard that both babies will grow up healthy and strong and happy. I can't wait to see you babies. I love you both already even before meeting you. Daddy, mummy and koko are looking forward to see you both. Stay healthy and happy in there.

Finally tested positive...

Today is one of the happiest days of my life. I've been undergoing infertility treatment since Norway, to UAE all the way to Singapore.

I was on the edge the whole of yesterday obsessing about whether I would test positive or not. Contemplating if I should get a HPT kit. But I told myself to just wait another day since mum and dad would be coming in with my HPT kit supplies.

Last few nights, I have been having cramps and twinges in my abdomen. At times the pain felt quite strong. I was happy to have some symptoms than none at all. As I am writing this now I am feeling the cramps in and off. I've also been feeling cramps om my toes for some reason. My body must be lacking of some nutrients.

This morning, poor little darling Zac was running a fever so he didn't go to school. He must have been bored all morning and during the car ride to pick dad and mum. I feel so sorry for him. But he behaved really well today and didn't kick a fuss although he was unwell. He is my little champ, always and forever. I love him to bits. Hope he will fully recover by tomorrow so he won't miss out on all the fun in school.

The moment I got home after picking dad and mum, I went to the bathroom to test. I was staring at the result initially and felt rather disappointed because I didn't see the second line immediately. However, after about a minute and the test was saturated, the faint line started showing. I looked at myself in the mirror and gave myself a grin and said "oh my god! Two lines!". I couldn't believe my eyes. I messaged Dave immediately and gave him a call immediately to tell him the news. He was having lunch with his VP so he didn't sound exactly excited and told me not to put our hopes too high.

Anyway, I was elated! I just couldn't believe my eyes and kept walking to and fro the bathroom to make sure that the second line was still there.

To convince myself that the HPT test I first used is not malfunctioning, I decided to run another test since my dearest mum got me 5 tests. So I went to the bathroom again to test. This time too, I got worried. The liquid didn't flow smoothly to the test screen and I thought it was gonna be another dud test. But after waiting for a little while for the thing to settle, the second line appeared even brighter than the first test! I grinned to myself again in joy and happiness and asked mum to witness that I am not seeing things. She verified that she also saw two lines on both the tests.

I am so excited to share this news with Zac. But I'll keep it in for a little while longer to make sure that everything goes well and give him a surprise news. Zac would be thrilled to know that he's finally gonna be a KOKO.

I'll remember this day forever till I die. It's a happy day for me.