Today darling Joel turns 6. My dearest Hannah would have turned 6 too. The twins in my life…although short lived happiness with Hannah.
I wish for Joel the very best in everything in his life. I pray that he grows up really strong and healthy and tall. I also pray with all my might that he will grow up happy and kind and have a long long long happy and peaceful and joyous life. He has been such a blessing in my life. Never fails to kiss or hug me everyday. I must have done something good to deserve him in my life. I love you Joel.
I miss Hannah so. I wish she was here with me. I wish she was being celebrated over the weekend during the party, and with the extended family too. I wish she was a part of our lives still. But the comfort of knowing that I will see her one day, keeps me going.
Dear Hannah, today I went to Auntie Siew Ping’s funeral. Have you met her yet? She is a lovely lady and she has a daughter just as big as you. Comfort her Hannah with your smiles and hugs and let her know that one day she will see her Charlotte and Alexander again, just like how you’ll see me again one day. I love you Hannah. Happy birthday in heaven. I’m sure you’re having a huge party up there. Lots of love, hugs and kisses, Mummy.
Today has been a bitter sweet day. Sweet as because it’s Joel’s special day. Bitter, because Hannah is not here with us and two other kids have lost their mum forever.
Life is very unpredictable. Don’t sweat the small stuff. Focus on what’s more important.
