Dearest Hannah, my darling daughter, whom I only spent a few days on earth with. How are you doing in heaven my little champ? I’m sure you are very tall and pretty now. I miss you and every time I think of you, I’ll imagine what you look like now. Do you look like mummy? Or do you look like daddy? Everyone says Joel looks exactly like me when I was young like him. So I’d imagine you’d be very similar to me too, just because you are my daughter.
Last week, I attended Auntie Siew Ping’s funeral. She left behind Uncle Michael, Charlotte and Alexander. I am sure she left with a heavy heart. Have you met her yet? If you see her, comfort her ok? She has a daughter too, the same age as you. I am sure seeing you will remind her so much of her little girl. I feel really sad that she left just like that. At the same time, hearing her pains and aches and struggle because of her sickness, makes me feel relieved that she is finally free from all these. Every time uncle Michael messages us with her updates, I feel like telling God, wouldn’t it lessen her pain if God could divide the pain equally to everyone praying for her healing? I can’t imagine her pain Hannah. So when she left, I believe that God just wants to release her of the suffering on this earth, just like he did when he decided to put wings on you 6 years ago today, so you can fly gently to his side, with no more struggles on this earth.
I miss you a lot Hannah. I only have an image of you being a baby and I wish that you would appear in my dreams so that I can see what you look like now. I would be so grateful even if when I wake up, I find that it’s just a dream. So, do appear in my dreams, and call me mummy.
I love you just as much as I love Zac and Joel. You will forever be in my heart, and thoughts. I will see you in heaven I hope. I am trying to grow closer to God, and also do my best on earth as a human being, until my last breathe, where I will finally meet you again. Till we meet again Hannah.
Lots of Love, Kisses and Hugs,
Mummy
