I miss you and I’m remembering you…

Dearest Hannah, how are you? I just took a shower and I don’t know how many times I’ve silently cried while thinking of you in the shower. Today is the same. I know that I said I’m at peace now…but it still doesn’t stop me wondering and missing you. 

I am currently caught in a battle with a customer. I have been having chest pains since. Hannah, these people are really another level and they can torture you until you break. I hope there is a closure and we can move on from this. The stress it’s causing me is not funny at all :(

I hope that you are well and happy. How tall are you now? Joel is growing up so fast and he’s a happy kid. Wish you were here to control him sometimes as his Cece. He wishes you happy birthday on your birthdays. Did you get his wishes? Koko Zac also wished you this year. Joel actually said something to heart warming. Simple but touches the heart strings. “Happy birthday twin!”. Short and sweet. 

Know that you are loved and you are missed! Cant wait to hug you once again. Till we meet again my dearest daughter. I love you!

Love,

Mummy

Happy 8th Birthday Joel and Hannah in Heaven…

Today 8 years ago was the happiest day of my life when my twins were born - Hannah and Joel. 

I didn’t think that 8 years later, it could still bring tears to my eyes. Firstly, thinking how far my little darling Joel has come in life and lastly, how the little cry I heard in the delivery room while I was sedated still remains so clear in my head. The little cry from the little one Hannah, who has left us. 

I wonder what Hannah looks like now. The other day Zac asked me, mummy do you think Hannah looks like Joel? I told Zac, probably Zac coz they’re twins. Or she might look like me! I’m glad that Hannah still comes up during our conversations because she will be a part of our lives forever. She will be remembered and loved in our hearts. 

Joel had a birthday party at Bounce again this year. He invited his whole class and 17 of them came to the party. He had so much fun and was so happy. I’m sure if Hannah was here the party would be double the size and she would have heaps of fun too. I am so glad that the both of them came into my life, although Hannah just a few days. I am looking forward to the day we all reunite again. 

Happy birthday my darling Joel. I pray that you have a really great year ahead. I pray that you grow up healthy and strong, happy and kind. I love you Joel. 

I love you Hannah. You must be also having a ball in heaven.