Dearest Hannah darling…today is the day you left us 10 years ago. Can you believe how long it has been since you left us? I still tap on the box each time I walk past it…like I’m tapping on your little head. Sometimes just wonder if you’ll look like the mini me. That would be quite a sight to see - a mini me. I’ll probably never know and never will experience this. It still hurts when I think of you or when I mention your name or when someone mentions the word “twins”…it’s a very painful word for me to hear. Coz I had a pair of twins, but I’m only left with one. One has left me to a faraway place and will not return ever again. The word “twins” really affects me a lot. I never want to show it, but just blogging it here…all my stream of consciousness.
How nice would it be to hear you call me “mummy” once. To hug me once. To give me a kiss once. Even just once. That would be really a miracle to even experience it in my dreams.
I just want you to know Hannah that you’re never forgotten. You’ll always have a special place in my heart. I love you from the inside and quietly, without anyone knowing or understanding the pain…it’s been 10 years…holding this inside…one day, I will see you again. It might not even be too far away. Till we meet again…I love you Hannah Mannah…I think I’ll call you this a lot if you were still here with me…❤️
