Thursday was fine.....went night shopping with a galfriend.....gosh....she can really shop.....if she rates 10......i am only like 3/4....hahaha....coz i am not much of a shopper.....i only shop when i need something....hehehe.....but....had a heart to heart talk with her......and shared a bit with her......coz she wasnt feeling too good about some things in her life.....about a rship......so just sorta told her to take it to the Lord.....and its good.....coz she also feels that God is convicting her..... :):):)
we then shopped and talked shopped and talked.....we even bought the same top....HAHAHAH.....so we shall wear it together one day......shopping with her is also very comical.....coz....errrr...nevermind....girl's talk....hahahah....but overall....it was good.......
Friday was great at work......although it was relatively busy at work.....as compared to Wed and Thu....but.....it was good.....
Had a bbq at my colleague's place after work....but went shopping with my colleague Wailing before heading off to Jade's place. Went to Harbour Town....gosh it was my first time there......i was under the coconut shell all these while....hahaha.....but was good.....I cant believe that i actually shared with her about cell and asking her to join us in cell.....frankly....i really couldnt believe that......but good that i did.....coz....she didnt turn me down....she said she would visit one day.....
went to colleague's house at forrestfield....gosh....its far! reached.....waited for the rest to reach.......had some baileys.....yummy my fave....hahaha......as usual......when a group of 15 people come together who work in the same office......the topic would be either people around office.....or...work.....so....it was hillarious.....and coz most of my colleagues are mostly aussies.......made it more comical when some of them were high and were talking nonsense.......i didnt stay too long tho.....coz.....errr.....i guess......i am tired/sleepy??? nah...just an excuse.......just a completely different setting for me......so i left pretty early.....
reached home.....felt sleepy......whenever i drink.....i would feel sleepy.....hahhaha......then showered......galfriend called.....and told me that she has ended the rship with the guy......and was feeling kinda bad......so chatted with her on the phone for nearly 1.5 huors??? i think.....she was sharing with me about what happened.....and what she felt upset about.....which is good....coz i think its much better than cooping everything inside.......then......as usual.....i am always full on nonsense.....so decided to move the topic to other stuffs......we have common friends......and i just mentioned silly stuffs like....."who knows you may end up with that guy"......."i am gonna message that guy and tell him, someone likes you....guess who....its XXXXX".......it was really funny.....coz she started to cheer up more......and joined me in my nonsense.....hahahaha.....she then started to say things i said....."someone likes you....guess who? its lean"......well.....its funny.....but the whole point is.......just didnt want her to think too much.....and i shared something with her before we ended our conversation........"Our heavenly Father never takes anything from His children unless He means to give them something better".....that was the comfort i hung on to.....when i broke off too.....so shared that with her.......
anyway....all in all.....was good.....glad that i left the bbq earlier.....and managed to spend some time with my friend on the phone.......i was so tired last night.......but......it was all worth it!!!!
i did my QT before going to bed......and God spoke to me again......which i didnt really comprehend last night....but now i do after thinking about what i read.....taken literally from the story in the bible, but can be applied to my life......
"Matthew 10:19-20 But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it will be given to you in that hour what you should speak. For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you"
.....i was reading what i typed prior to this....as well as the past journal entry about talking more of Christ to my mum.......and i realised that i have always been apprehensive.......and God just wants me to know that i do not need to worry at all, coz the words that would be out of my mouth.....wouldnt be words from me....but from Him!!!!! hmmm......when i do my quiet time....i realised that God speaks to me......and addresses the issues that i am facing in my daily life......which is so amazing....
Woooohhhh.....i didnt realise the time and the length i typed.....its nearly 10am now....and i am supposed to meet my friends for dimsum at 11am.....and this is yet another long entry....sorry to bore anyone.....
have a great weekend!!!! cheers!!!!
Friday, January 14, 2005
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Phantom of the Opera
| Rating: | ★★★★★ |
| Category: | Movies |
| Genre: | Classics |
Heard that its really good.....Would love to go and watch it one weekend.....if i manage to get someone to go with me :(
Hope to get some replies....hehe.....
Thanks.....
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Good time of sharing.......
Wednesday was a great day......
Work as usual......kinda stressed out at work yesterday.....but it was alright......managed to get through the day......
After work.....reached home......rushed......had to bake a cake for cell.....coz they were gonna give Ali and Kristina a surprise.....coz its their bday month......phewww....it was really really a rush.....finished work at 5....reached home at about 530.....started baking the cake.....at 630....cake was still in the oven.....still wet....gosh.....and wendy called me last minute to ask me to play for worship.....confirmed with wendy if fred was playing during the weekend....and she said yup.....anyways...it was alright...coz we didnt end up having worship.....everything was too last minute.....and my guitar string burst again too.....*sigh*.....
cell was good.....we had to go in pairs......and share about what we want to see ourselves doing this year.....so was sharing with fred.....he was sharing with me about his time with God and blah blha.....and felt very encouraged.....coz he told me that he normally wakes up earlier for QT......but i am the direct opposite....coz i do my QT before i go to sleep....so we were sharing about it......we were discussing if we should do it twice a day.....haha....morning and night......am quite comfy doing it at night.....coz i dream every night....and i find that before i sleep....i bury the word of God in me.....i have better sleep......i was trying to put worship leading in cell as one of fred's resolution hahaha.......and i believe God will use his talents......:) we then prayed for each other.......and joined with the rest......
then bday surprise.....talk talk and talk.....and we are now playing the angel and mortal game......and i got someone special for my mortal.......isnt it good??? wanna be a blessing to him!!!! :):):) was hoping i would get either him or another guy......:):):)
we are gonna have a multicultural zone night on the 21st jan too...so am looking forward to it........its like a normal service....but i reckon it would be great!!!!
that sums up my wednesday......now just looking forward to the weekend again...... cant wait to do some sports.....was sick the whole weekend last week...... :(:(:(
cheers!!!!
Work as usual......kinda stressed out at work yesterday.....but it was alright......managed to get through the day......
After work.....reached home......rushed......had to bake a cake for cell.....coz they were gonna give Ali and Kristina a surprise.....coz its their bday month......phewww....it was really really a rush.....finished work at 5....reached home at about 530.....started baking the cake.....at 630....cake was still in the oven.....still wet....gosh.....and wendy called me last minute to ask me to play for worship.....confirmed with wendy if fred was playing during the weekend....and she said yup.....anyways...it was alright...coz we didnt end up having worship.....everything was too last minute.....and my guitar string burst again too.....*sigh*.....
cell was good.....we had to go in pairs......and share about what we want to see ourselves doing this year.....so was sharing with fred.....he was sharing with me about his time with God and blah blha.....and felt very encouraged.....coz he told me that he normally wakes up earlier for QT......but i am the direct opposite....coz i do my QT before i go to sleep....so we were sharing about it......we were discussing if we should do it twice a day.....haha....morning and night......am quite comfy doing it at night.....coz i dream every night....and i find that before i sleep....i bury the word of God in me.....i have better sleep......i was trying to put worship leading in cell as one of fred's resolution hahaha.......and i believe God will use his talents......:) we then prayed for each other.......and joined with the rest......
then bday surprise.....talk talk and talk.....and we are now playing the angel and mortal game......and i got someone special for my mortal.......isnt it good??? wanna be a blessing to him!!!! :):):) was hoping i would get either him or another guy......:):):)
we are gonna have a multicultural zone night on the 21st jan too...so am looking forward to it........its like a normal service....but i reckon it would be great!!!!
that sums up my wednesday......now just looking forward to the weekend again...... cant wait to do some sports.....was sick the whole weekend last week...... :(:(:(
cheers!!!!
Friday, January 7, 2005
Gonna be a long long journal entry
7th Jan 2005.......
Today hasnt been too bad......shall start with last night......it was bad!!!!
Last night was a terrible night for me......after chatting with mum.....decided to call it a day....did QT and went straight to bed......logged off at about 930pm.......brushed my teeth and went to bed......fell asleep immediately after i closed my books.......then at about 1030pm.....got up......tossed and turned and tried my best to fall asleep again......couldnt sleep.....and my thoughts were focussed on so many things that I just couldnt sleep......so turned on the telly.....but head was already spinning like mad......had a terrible headache......then friend called, asked if wanna sell my car......so.......called mum and dad to discuss about buying a new car......both encouraged esp dad since he had long wanted me to get rid of my current car.....coz he said its too old and unsafe.....dun really wish to get a new one tho...coz i am not even sure if i will still be here in a year's time......but problem is....friend wants the car now....coz he is doing summer in curtin......dun think i can live without a car since i need it to get to work.....anyway......whole night......head spinning......decided to take my pain killer.....antidote called ponstan......and guess what? i thought i was moving out end of last year due to some household issues, but decided not to.....so i packed everything in boxes......and i couldnt find my medicine box!!!!! struggled and took out boxes to find......went downstairs to find....searched high and low.....and finally found it.....it was right in front of me....in the drawer....i could have banged the wall..!!!! took my medicine....and went to bed...thank God....i fell asleep......
got up this morning....feeling much better....wonder why the sudden headache last night......
at work today was alright......had a weekly review.....the one on tuesday was a monthly review......manager pleased, so i too had no complaints.....with telstra...its review review and review....every week......*sigh*
i normally listen to my cds while i am at work......i just love working with music on, it makes me work faster and more effectively......and for the last whole week, i have been listening to the hillsongs cd......i dont know what happened today.....while i was listening to the song "reaching for you" today.......tears just started rolling down my cheeks while i was in the midst of reviewing an account.....silly as it may sound....but i could feel Him so much......i think coz the whole night last night....i have been thinking about my life......what i could have done better.....how i have lived......the relationships i was in.....in fact.....i was feeling pretty terrible last night......i just felt so alone.....for those of you who dont know.....i just got out of a relationship of nearly 4 years about 4 months ago......i know that i have gotten over it......but somehow.....i dunno what was with me last night...i started thinking about everything that has happened in the past before.....(maybe that is why i got the splitting headache)......i think my stream of consciousness is a total mess now....cant really put what i wish to in words......
anyway....it has been one "thinking" day for me......i have been thinking about other stuff as well.....about whether i should stay here, or go back to msia/spore......its just something i cant straighten out......i miss my family...and i do want to be around my family......dad prefers me to be here....mum prefers me to go back.....but i know they will support every decision i make....coz they trust me alot......sigh......i know God will guide me.....my fave song used to be...."God will find a way, where there seems to be no way, He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me, He will be my guide, Hold me closely to His side, With love and strength for each new day, He will make a way!"......but as for now.....i dont know....its hard to make a decision.....was joking with mum that day.....if i end up with someone here....i will stay here...if i dont, i will go back......
Just wanna share with everyone how God has given me the strength to carry on in the darkest days of my life......I strongly believe, if i didnt seek comfort in Him when I was on the verge of drowning….err…..i don’t know where I will be now….i would probably end up back in msia…..am glad I didn’t…..coz I realised how much I have grown spiritually here……and I also believe that if I had gone home……all would be different again…..maybe not so much church going, and praying and reading of the Word and fellowship and music composition and the and goes on and on……
Another thing that I have been thinking about is what my friends in Singapore actually betted with me……3 of them……they all said that I will get attached within a year…….and the bet is that if I do get attached, I would have to treat them all 3 to a meal….and if they lost, they would each have to treat me once……I wouldn’t deny that I do like some people at the moment…..its not like "like" them and want to be with them kinda thing.....but more of wanting to know the person better coz find the person nice, encouraging and nice to talk to......and its definitely not because I want so much to be in a relationship……in fact, I feel very much happier now…..being single rocks…..but I guess….when it comes to liking someone, you cant really control it, can you? ……whatever it is, i told myself no matter what happens, I will NEVER go out with a non-Christian ever again……coz I guess the way of life, the way of thinking, and also the paths that we are seeking would be totally different……I have actually forgotten the feeling of being loved and to love.....coz people whom i love and love me are all far far away from me.……I know God loves me and i do too....…..i know my family loves me and i love them as well……but somehow…..i have just sort of forgotten the feeling…...cant remember......no i should tell myself......love is not based on feelings......haha......anyway.....i dont even know what i am talking about now......should think in a more positive light.....
Move on to other things in my thoughts…….i wish I had a close friend here in perth where I can share all my feelings/thoughts/happiness/sorrows with……I don’t know…..i thought I found a confidante in a person…..but I realised that to certain guys, if you cant be his girlfriend, you cant be good friends…….isnt it sad? Shared my ups and downs a lot with the person, and realised that he wanted more than just friends……but not something I wish to do…….anyway….i really wish I had just one good friend here……one will do…….*sigh......everyone....practically everyone tells me this...."Lean you are very strong....you are so independent....i admire your courage.....".....but deep down....i am only human.....and there is just so much i can bear.......i can feel tired i can feel lonely....i can feel happy....i can feel sad too.....i may look strong on the outside......but deep down......its as soft as jelly......
Phewww….i didn’t realise that I have written so much…..this is normally how I write my diary by the way…..shall type a stop here….and continue again some other time……its weekend again…..sports time again…… :):):)
PS: Photo of the 3 forever friends bear in my room……my companion when I feel scared/lonely/sad…etc…. hehe
Wednesday, January 5, 2005
First ever journal entry.......
Today, I read Dr Chand's entry......and he inspired me to make use of this "facility" to share too.....
It was a great day at work today.....was tranferred to the specialist team a month ago and had a review by my manager today......she is very pleased with my performance.....which made my day!!!!!
Have been trying to really learn tennis too.....but forgotten to bring back the tennis racquet......David mentioned yesterday that he would be dropping by in Singapore.....so asked him if he could help me bring back my racquet......he was kind enough to say yes..... :) and Raymond would be passing the racquet to him too.....coolness......
Past few weeks, have been trying to compose more songs......but only managed to complete one.....*sigh*......lotsa inspiration.....just that my brains refuse to cooperate......today listened to the songs by Diana Wee (Christian) again......her songs really touched my heart! http://www.cdbaby.com/cd/dianawee
And for once after donkey weeks/months, I cooked!!!! Simple meal, but the meal made me realise how much i miss my family!!!!! Eating alone is really no fun hey! And try eating alone every night.... :( prefer not to eat......Really miss my family loads.....I wish they were here with me......
Missing my friends too...miss the times we had....while i was back.....cow and coolies, plaza spura, starbucks, gosh....just miss miss and miss!!!!!
Look forward to my release from Perth Prison......
Good nite......
PS: A photo of me in my PJ......mum asked me to send her a photo.....so I took it using timer......ready to sleep.......
Monday, January 3, 2005
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