Been a great week so far......

Wow.....last wrote my journal on Saturday....now it's approaching weekend again....how time flies......

Sunday....lazed around at home....watching telly.....and.....watching a korean drama......and as usual......korean drama....always ends with the lead dying...somehow...it's a trend.....but it's meaningful.....a love story.....about a guy who cant get over his first love, and this gal whom he met later his life.....fell in love with him.....and she did all she could for him....(along those lines lah) but still unrequited love.....but.....after the first love got married, he decided to give it a try with the gal who fell in love with him....(which is bad of course...coz he didnt love her then, but wanted to try to love her).....then.....while with her.....still thinking of going back together with the first love.....(the first love also one kind lah....already got fiance.....still keeps looking him up).....then.....finally......the lead guy.....fell in love with the gal....and then.....the gal found out that she had leukemia....and didnt wanna be a burden to him....and then suggested a break off....blah blah....then the guy found out.....and regretted what he did to her....why he didnt love her with all his heart when she loved him with all her heart despite the rejection.....so he spent her last days with her.....but aiyah.....sien ah...!!!! in the end still died....*sigh*....and this silly gal here....cried until eyes like goldfish.....next day went to work.....people asked me what i did to my eyes....so just said....didnt sleep well...anyway....just sharing with you guys about what i watched and the lesson i learnt......LOVE THOSE AROUND YOU WHILE THEY ARE STILL ALIVE!!!!! SHOW THEM, AND IN FACT TELL THEM THAT YOU LOVE THEM....EACH AND EVERYDAY!!!!! YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS!!!!! which is why....i ALWAYS end my messages.....to my parents.....with "I LOVE YOU".....

mon/tue....work work and work...nothing much....but tuesday was aussie theme in office....and everyone was so hillarious!!!! we had a lady....i dunno from which team....she came in shorts!!!! super short shorts......with a sleeveless jersey.....and a scarf around her neck......it was really funny......but noone was impressed i think....coz err.....she is pretty big and not that young anymore......as in size.....and.....she was so loud....to get people's attn......coz we have a best dressed prize that day....hehe.....for me...nothing much....just wore green.....and pants.....full stop....i am very low profile in the office...people say i am so quiet they dun even know that i am there......unbelievable rite? but really....i am extremely quiet in office unlike outside.....so talkative yah.......hehehe.....had this colleague of mine....who dragged around the blown-up crocodile......wherever she went....(impersonating crocodile dundy)......another had a blown-up kangaroo.....gosh...it was so so so so so funny!!!! whole day we were laughing and giggling.....and those two gals sitting in front of me.....right in front of me started a balloon fight.....and wouldnt be pleasant if the balloon burst in front of me, rite? and they purposely made the "squeaking" sound...yucks!!!! i just stuffed my ear with my earphone...listened to my music......and continued on with my work......me not a big fan of balloons....hahaha......work was good anyways.....

wed.....aussie day....had a bbq......at burswood park...it was good.....just chilling around....played some volleyball.....talk.....nothing much.....but i was embarrassed about something.....nevermind......being teased is not that fun afterall....so i shall stop teasing people!!!...nah...if i stop....i wouldnt be lean anymore...hahaha...fireworks were alright lah....but not that spectacular....coz couldnt feel the boom....hahaha....coz we were at the south of the river......and it was quite far away......but.....all in all....had quite a fun day...just lazing around...doing nothing.....eating....chatting...playing.....but..the jam was horrible....i was caught in the jam for nearly an hour...detour here detour there...by the time i reached home....nearly 10pm mann.....showered......cleared stuff......nearly 11pm.....phew....so today kinda tired at work......

today...at work....everything was good.....all about tennis tennis tennis and cricket in the office..... :):):)
but all good......

something to share.....matthew 5:16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven........this verse ministered alot to me when i was doing my QT......i believe that the only way my family would come to know Christ....would be through the way i glorify God in my behaviour....my speech....my actions....my love....my everything.....so.......am trying to kick away all the bad things about myself......and cultivate good stuff..... :):):) really look forward to the day my parents, my sister, bro......all accept Christ into their lives.......i know that day will come!!!! in HIS time....in His time...he makes all things beautiful in His time......through prayer and petition.....God hears us...... :):):)

i think i am getting more and more long winded......shall not go on......have a good weekend all!!!!!

cheers!

ps: JOJO :(:(:( and i.....miss him!!! :(:(:( he's so cute yah......that was at matilda bay.....bbq.....with the whole cell i think......whole of UWA cell......

AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE OI OI OI!!!!!!

Australia Day

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Saturday again.......WOOHOO!!!!!

Has been a long long week for me......work was alright in the beginning......towards the end....it got abit stressful.....but survived alright......praise God...... :):):)

Thursday went out with a friend to bubble tea.....and went to Koorong after that.....hmm.....they moved......but....spent quite a while there looking at books and was asking my friend to get a devotional bible where she can do her readings everyday......but we couldnt find a suitable one......but out of the blue....she told me....."shall we do bible study together?".....woohoo.....i was so happy to hear her saying that..... :):):) have been trying to get her to go cell....etc....but this is a good start!!!!! i also just found out that last time i was assigned to disciple her.....that was in 1999 i think.....haha....dun puke!!!!......she said we only had one session......and that's it......but...hmm.....i dun even remember that...but now i can recall a bit.......lisa was discipling me.....and lisa asked me to disciple her for me to grow...and for accountability as well......but anyway...history history.......so.....we are gonna start.....hopefully this week.......we are trying to get a few more people to do this bible study thingy......we'll see.....i also bought another book....."Believing God" by R.T Kendall....havent started reading yet....coz i just only finished the "Blessings and Curses" book.....gosh i am becoming a bookworm....but its alright....in the good way!!! anyway....i have always liked reading....heheh.....

Another thing is.....my friend was sharing with me about him currently reading the "The purpose driven life" by Rick Warren.....and i have been asking my galfriend to read it.....but she always said no no no......so when i shared with her that this friend is reading the book as well....and she can discuss the book with him.....she then said ok....she will read it.......so....i will be passing the book to her....since i have already finished......which is.....good isnt it??? i guess prayers really work wonders!!! would love to see her on fire again.....

the past few weeks...i have been talking alot of nonsense.....with people around me.....and i think everyone must be thinking i am abit off......as in one of my screws is loose....hahaha.....but am sure people who know me.....will know that my screw has never been tight....hehe *winks*.....but actually....the past few weeks have been kinda stressful for me.....have been keeping it inside for a while now.....and decided to share with you all.....please pray for me yah..... :(:(:( have been talking alot to mum lately......and found out that my parents are in their "cold war" mode AGAIN!!!!! and pretty serious....it has been nearly 2/3 months they havent been speaking to each other now......please pray for my parents......i think that is why i have been so emotional lately......*sigh*.....every little thing....tears will start collecting in my eyes.....HAMBAO/CRYBABY....hehehe....but.....please help pray for understanding....pray for peace.....pray for reconcilliation......pray for happiness.....pray for wisdom to handle disputes the way they should be handled......and most of all pray for love.....parents don't know that children are most affected when they dont get along.....and this has been going on since i was so so so so young......*sigh*

have been praying and thinking alot about staying here or going back.....and i think most likely i will be going back......coz i feel that probably there is not much reasons for me to stay here besides serving my PR......and of course growing in Christ here......maybe going back to spore/msia would be better off for me.....although my mum always tells me now....."don't come back.....you dont see anything, you wun feel any heartaches...." but they dont know deep down....how worried i am.....how depressed i feel when i hear of all those......so now.....have been just praying....for revelation....of where God wants me to be.....i seriously....dunno and will just leave it to God.....and the holy spirit for discernment......but from the bottom of my heart to the bottom of my toes......i prefer it here....hehe.....coz i feel that i can fully commit myself to the Lord here......spore.....its just work work work....weekends.....gotta spend time with family.......anyway...yeah...will just leave it to Him.....

Psalm 9:9-10
The Lord will be a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble; And those who know Your name will put their trust in You, For you Lord have not forsaken those who seek You

Ok now...gotta get back to my happy mode.....coz i know that we choose to be happy or sad and how we want our day to be.....and must keep smiling....coz i think smiling moves alot of muscles on the face.....hehehe....and a smile takes all the worries away!!!! ......and i wanna choose to be happy..... :) i know the Lord will guide me....and be the light unto my path.....

Have a great weekend all!!!!!!

PS: In the photo...which of them look like me? I reckon the one in the middle....hehehe..... :) just thought i might put a photo....if not so boring......and a precious moments calendar i printed with lots of beautiful verses.....

HEY!!!!!

Hi Tong.....

It has been ages since i saw you!!!!!!!

Finally saw your pics!!!! Hehehe.......

How are you, where are you, what you doing now....etc etc....

Keep in touch yah!!!!!!

Cheers!

Tuesday and Lynnie feels happy!!!!!

It was a good day at work today again.....happy....coz given opportunity to learn lots of new stuff at work......and i love learning new stuff.... :D:D:D am enjoying work so far.....hope it stays this way.....

hmm....last saturday....went for dimsum with my friends....and headed off to the bowling alley.....played 6 games.......gosh.....spent the whole afternoon there....but was good.....before that...after dimsum....walked to city.....went for bubble tea.....

went to church at night.....service was great!!!!! worship......was in tears....again...shucks mann.....am becoming a cry baby!!!!! had holy communion......in tears again......my goodness......think i drank too much water that day!!!! hahaha....i guess mainly coz i was with my friend.....and she burst into tears...and whenever i see someone cry.....i will cry too....dunno why...also mainly i could feel what she was feeling....coz i went through it myself......and dunno lah..........but it was really really good.....but after service......had a misunderstanding with a guy.....i feel that his attitude is very different towards me now.....i dunno if its because of something i have said prior to this......i dont remember saying or doing anything to him coz i hardly ever met him......it's really hurting when you talk to someone and he totally ignores what you say.....and worst thing is.....i repeated 3 times......the same sentence.....and i sorta got abit cheesed off......coz felt a bit like a fool repeating the same thing over and over again....to have the person walking beside you and not responding when he heard what you said.......oh well.....i have been trying to make things right for this friendship i have with him.....but....i guess its hard.....just gonna leave it to God......i know that if i have tried my best...god will do the rest...was a bit guilty for being pissed off too.....but as i prayed.....and read the bible this verse came to my attention "Psalm 4:4 Be angry, and do not sin. Meditate within your heart on your bed and be still"....but seriously speaking it hurts.....coz i shared alot with him......alot of how i felt....alot about my personal happenings...i really treated him as a very very good friend, as my brother......but i guess things change when certain things change....if anyone understands what i am saying.......if ignoring me makes him feel better.....then i guess.....just let it be....i will not force on anything......just feel a bit disappointed tho coz i really treasure friendships.....and of course i treasure my friendship with him........i feel as tho i have lost a friend in one night!....well.....life goes on.....i guess i just need to pray about it...and take things easy....reached home.....chatted with friends.....did QT and went to bed.......

sunday....got up pretty early as usual....its sad how i cant sleep on no matter how tired i am....i will definitely get up at 6/7am everyday...sometimes earlier...sigh......body gotten used to it i guess....did my laundry....vacuumed my room....cleared my room....changed my bed linen and realised something.....mum bought fitted set for me....and it couldnt fit my bed...and i went to buy another fitted set....it couldnt fit again....so....i finally found out that this current bed is longer than normal beds!!!! silly me!!!! and i dun really like using flat sheets....coz every morning when you make your bed.....you gotta adjust the flat sheet.....and i think i move alot when i sleep.....hahaha....so......guess everyone would know the outcome.....more work in the morning!......computer went bonkers again...managed to fix it.....then....headed straight to whaleback golf course for a few swings.....wasnt too bad.....still getting used to the set that i just bought.....after that....headed straight home.....online......surfed the net......rest......read the papers.....basically just lazed around.....which is good!!!!! i hardly see myself doing nothing......either on the comp......or doing something...or out.....its good to laze around after the long week.....and had a good weekend too....coz the last weekend....i was bed ridden.....had fever....and was in bed sat and sun...how pathetic!!!! but the one just went was GREAT!!!!

monday....worked.....nothing much....but started reading a book called "How to pass from curse to blessing" by Derek Prince.....i read this book last time when i was in singapore...but decided to read it again......its not too bad......book suggests that there are two forces that are at work in every life: blessings and curses and to really enjoy the benefits of God's blessings and be protected from curses, we need to understand how these forces work. Book generally teaches us how to identify curses at work and help to find release and God's blessings......paraphrased from the summary at the back of the book...haha.....

a friend also asked about going in to places like temples and pagodas and etc......so......sorta looked further into the bible.....to see if there are specific verses for that......and asked all the future pastors i know....HAHAHAA.....thanks for all the replies....greatly appreciated.....i feel that its really good to share any questions we have in mind.....coz....it doesnt only help yourself...it helps other people dwell deeper into the question too.... :):):)

woooooowww.....i think i should look into being a writer...i can really write alot....maybe that is why.....english literature was my fave sub in high school....hahaha.....shall type a stop here.....hope to have more "happening" happenings happening to me.....once again...sorry to bore anyone out there...

Help...

"Hey, got a bible question for you. My bro and gf going to Guangzhou, so I asked him to visit
temples, pagoda and all, for the scenery and all. But they reckon bible says cannot go such places. Whats ur opinion? Have you come across it?" quoted from a friend......can you help with it?

Thanks chands........

enlightenment...hehehe

"Hey, got a bible question for you. My bro and gf going to Guangzhou, so I asked him to visit
temples, pagoda and all, for the scenery and all. But they reckon bible says cannot go such places. Whats ur opinion? Have you come across it?" quoted from a friend......can you help with it?

Thanks hens.....

Weekend again........

Thursday was fine.....went night shopping with a galfriend.....gosh....she can really shop.....if she rates 10......i am only like 3/4....hahaha....coz i am not much of a shopper.....i only shop when i need something....hehehe.....but....had a heart to heart talk with her......and shared a bit with her......coz she wasnt feeling too good about some things in her life.....about a rship......so just sorta told her to take it to the Lord.....and its good.....coz she also feels that God is convicting her..... :):):)

we then shopped and talked shopped and talked.....we even bought the same top....HAHAHAH.....so we shall wear it together one day......shopping with her is also very comical.....coz....errrr...nevermind....girl's talk....hahahah....but overall....it was good.......

Friday was great at work......although it was relatively busy at work.....as compared to Wed and Thu....but.....it was good.....

Had a bbq at my colleague's place after work....but went shopping with my colleague Wailing before heading off to Jade's place. Went to Harbour Town....gosh it was my first time there......i was under the coconut shell all these while....hahaha.....but was good.....I cant believe that i actually shared with her about cell and asking her to join us in cell.....frankly....i really couldnt believe that......but good that i did.....coz....she didnt turn me down....she said she would visit one day.....

went to colleague's house at forrestfield....gosh....its far! reached.....waited for the rest to reach.......had some baileys.....yummy my fave....hahaha......as usual......when a group of 15 people come together who work in the same office......the topic would be either people around office.....or...work.....so....it was hillarious.....and coz most of my colleagues are mostly aussies.......made it more comical when some of them were high and were talking nonsense.......i didnt stay too long tho.....coz.....errr.....i guess......i am tired/sleepy??? nah...just an excuse.......just a completely different setting for me......so i left pretty early.....

reached home.....felt sleepy......whenever i drink.....i would feel sleepy.....hahhaha......then showered......galfriend called.....and told me that she has ended the rship with the guy......and was feeling kinda bad......so chatted with her on the phone for nearly 1.5 huors??? i think.....she was sharing with me about what happened.....and what she felt upset about.....which is good....coz i think its much better than cooping everything inside.......then......as usual.....i am always full on nonsense.....so decided to move the topic to other stuffs......we have common friends......and i just mentioned silly stuffs like....."who knows you may end up with that guy"......."i am gonna message that guy and tell him, someone likes you....guess who....its XXXXX".......it was really funny.....coz she started to cheer up more......and joined me in my nonsense.....hahahaha.....she then started to say things i said....."someone likes you....guess who? its lean"......well.....its funny.....but the whole point is.......just didnt want her to think too much.....and i shared something with her before we ended our conversation........"Our heavenly Father never takes anything from His children unless He means to give them something better".....that was the comfort i hung on to.....when i broke off too.....so shared that with her.......

anyway....all in all.....was good.....glad that i left the bbq earlier.....and managed to spend some time with my friend on the phone.......i was so tired last night.......but......it was all worth it!!!!

i did my QT before going to bed......and God spoke to me again......which i didnt really comprehend last night....but now i do after thinking about what i read.....taken literally from the story in the bible, but can be applied to my life......
"Matthew 10:19-20 But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it will be given to you in that hour what you should speak. For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father who speaks in you"
.....i was reading what i typed prior to this....as well as the past journal entry about talking more of Christ to my mum.......and i realised that i have always been apprehensive.......and God just wants me to know that i do not need to worry at all, coz the words that would be out of my mouth.....wouldnt be words from me....but from Him!!!!! hmmm......when i do my quiet time....i realised that God speaks to me......and addresses the issues that i am facing in my daily life......which is so amazing....

Woooohhhh.....i didnt realise the time and the length i typed.....its nearly 10am now....and i am supposed to meet my friends for dimsum at 11am.....and this is yet another long entry....sorry to bore anyone.....

have a great weekend!!!! cheers!!!!

Phantom of the Opera

Rating:	★★★★★
Category:	Movies
Genre:	Classics

Hey people....this is not a review.....but i am trying to get a review about the movie above...anyone watched it yet????

Heard that its really good.....Would love to go and watch it one weekend.....if i manage to get someone to go with me :(

Hope to get some replies....hehe.....

Thanks.....

Good time of sharing.......

Wednesday was a great day......

Work as usual......kinda stressed out at work yesterday.....but it was alright......managed to get through the day......

After work.....reached home......rushed......had to bake a cake for cell.....coz they were gonna give Ali and Kristina a surprise.....coz its their bday month......phewww....it was really really a rush.....finished work at 5....reached home at about 530.....started baking the cake.....at 630....cake was still in the oven.....still wet....gosh.....and wendy called me last minute to ask me to play for worship.....confirmed with wendy if fred was playing during the weekend....and she said yup.....anyways...it was alright...coz we didnt end up having worship.....everything was too last minute.....and my guitar string burst again too.....*sigh*.....

cell was good.....we had to go in pairs......and share about what we want to see ourselves doing this year.....so was sharing with fred.....he was sharing with me about his time with God and blah blha.....and felt very encouraged.....coz he told me that he normally wakes up earlier for QT......but i am the direct opposite....coz i do my QT before i go to sleep....so we were sharing about it......we were discussing if we should do it twice a day.....haha....morning and night......am quite comfy doing it at night.....coz i dream every night....and i find that before i sleep....i bury the word of God in me.....i have better sleep......i was trying to put worship leading in cell as one of fred's resolution hahaha.......and i believe God will use his talents......:) we then prayed for each other.......and joined with the rest......

then bday surprise.....talk talk and talk.....and we are now playing the angel and mortal game......and i got someone special for my mortal.......isnt it good??? wanna be a blessing to him!!!! :):):) was hoping i would get either him or another guy......:):):)

we are gonna have a multicultural zone night on the 21st jan too...so am looking forward to it........its like a normal service....but i reckon it would be great!!!!

that sums up my wednesday......now just looking forward to the weekend again...... cant wait to do some sports.....was sick the whole weekend last week...... :(:(:(

cheers!!!!

Ali & Kristina's Bday.....

Venue: Riverview Church....
Date: 12 January 2005

Gonna be a long long journal entry

7th Jan 2005.......

Today hasnt been too bad......shall start with last night......it was bad!!!!

Last night was a terrible night for me......after chatting with mum.....decided to call it a day....did QT and went straight to bed......logged off at about 930pm.......brushed my teeth and went to bed......fell asleep immediately after i closed my books.......then at about 1030pm.....got up......tossed and turned and tried my best to fall asleep again......couldnt sleep.....and my thoughts were focussed on so many things that I just couldnt sleep......so turned on the telly.....but head was already spinning like mad......had a terrible headache......then friend called, asked if wanna sell my car......so.......called mum and dad to discuss about buying a new car......both encouraged esp dad since he had long wanted me to get rid of my current car.....coz he said its too old and unsafe.....dun really wish to get a new one tho...coz i am not even sure if i will still be here in a year's time......but problem is....friend wants the car now....coz he is doing summer in curtin......dun think i can live without a car since i need it to get to work.....anyway......whole night......head spinning......decided to take my pain killer.....antidote called ponstan......and guess what? i thought i was moving out end of last year due to some household issues, but decided not to.....so i packed everything in boxes......and i couldnt find my medicine box!!!!! struggled and took out boxes to find......went downstairs to find....searched high and low.....and finally found it.....it was right in front of me....in the drawer....i could have banged the wall..!!!! took my medicine....and went to bed...thank God....i fell asleep......

got up this morning....feeling much better....wonder why the sudden headache last night......

at work today was alright......had a weekly review.....the one on tuesday was a monthly review......manager pleased, so i too had no complaints.....with telstra...its review review and review....every week......*sigh*

i normally listen to my cds while i am at work......i just love working with music on, it makes me work faster and more effectively......and for the last whole week, i have been listening to the hillsongs cd......i dont know what happened today.....while i was listening to the song "reaching for you" today.......tears just started rolling down my cheeks while i was in the midst of reviewing an account.....silly as it may sound....but i could feel Him so much......i think coz the whole night last night....i have been thinking about my life......what i could have done better.....how i have lived......the relationships i was in.....in fact.....i was feeling pretty terrible last night......i just felt so alone.....for those of you who dont know.....i just got out of a relationship of nearly 4 years about 4 months ago......i know that i have gotten over it......but somehow.....i dunno what was with me last night...i started thinking about everything that has happened in the past before.....(maybe that is why i got the splitting headache)......i think my stream of consciousness is a total mess now....cant really put what i wish to in words......

anyway....it has been one "thinking" day for me......i have been thinking about other stuff as well.....about whether i should stay here, or go back to msia/spore......its just something i cant straighten out......i miss my family...and i do want to be around my family......dad prefers me to be here....mum prefers me to go back.....but i know they will support every decision i make....coz they trust me alot......sigh......i know God will guide me.....my fave song used to be...."God will find a way, where there seems to be no way, He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me, He will be my guide, Hold me closely to His side, With love and strength for each new day, He will make a way!"......but as for now.....i dont know....its hard to make a decision.....was joking with mum that day.....if i end up with someone here....i will stay here...if i dont, i will go back......

Just wanna share with everyone how God has given me the strength to carry on in the darkest days of my life......I strongly believe, if i didnt seek comfort in Him when I was on the verge of drowning….err…..i don’t know where I will be now….i would probably end up back in msia…..am glad I didn’t…..coz I realised how much I have grown spiritually here……and I also believe that if I had gone home……all would be different again…..maybe not so much church going, and praying and reading of the Word and fellowship and music composition and the and goes on and on……

Another thing that I have been thinking about is what my friends in Singapore actually betted with me……3 of them……they all said that I will get attached within a year…….and the bet is that if I do get attached, I would have to treat them all 3 to a meal….and if they lost, they would each have to treat me once……I wouldn’t deny that I do like some people at the moment…..its not like "like" them and want to be with them kinda thing.....but more of wanting to know the person better coz find the person nice, encouraging and nice to talk to......and its definitely not because I want so much to be in a relationship……in fact, I feel very much happier now…..being single rocks…..but I guess….when it comes to liking someone, you cant really control it, can you? ……whatever it is, i told myself no matter what happens, I will NEVER go out with a non-Christian ever again……coz I guess the way of life, the way of thinking, and also the paths that we are seeking would be totally different……I have actually forgotten the feeling of being loved and to love.....coz people whom i love and love me are all far far away from me.……I know God loves me and i do too....…..i know my family loves me and i love them as well……but somehow…..i have just sort of forgotten the feeling…...cant remember......no i should tell myself......love is not based on feelings......haha......anyway.....i dont even know what i am talking about now......should think in a more positive light.....

Move on to other things in my thoughts…….i wish I had a close friend here in perth where I can share all my feelings/thoughts/happiness/sorrows with……I don’t know…..i thought I found a confidante in a person…..but I realised that to certain guys, if you cant be his girlfriend, you cant be good friends…….isnt it sad? Shared my ups and downs a lot with the person, and realised that he wanted more than just friends……but not something I wish to do…….anyway….i really wish I had just one good friend here……one will do…….*sigh......everyone....practically everyone tells me this...."Lean you are very strong....you are so independent....i admire your courage.....".....but deep down....i am only human.....and there is just so much i can bear.......i can feel tired i can feel lonely....i can feel happy....i can feel sad too.....i may look strong on the outside......but deep down......its as soft as jelly......

Phewww….i didn’t realise that I have written so much…..this is normally how I write my diary by the way…..shall type a stop here….and continue again some other time……its weekend again…..sports time again…… :):):)

PS: Photo of the 3 forever friends bear in my room……my companion when I feel scared/lonely/sad…etc…. hehe

First ever journal entry.......

Today, I read Dr Chand's entry......and he inspired me to make use of this "facility" to share too.....

It was a great day at work today.....was tranferred to the specialist team a month ago and had a review by my manager today......she is very pleased with my performance.....which made my day!!!!!

Have been trying to really learn tennis too.....but forgotten to bring back the tennis racquet......David mentioned yesterday that he would be dropping by in Singapore.....so asked him if he could help me bring back my racquet......he was kind enough to say yes..... :) and Raymond would be passing the racquet to him too.....coolness......

Past few weeks, have been trying to compose more songs......but only managed to complete one.....*sigh*......lotsa inspiration.....just that my brains refuse to cooperate......today listened to the songs by Diana Wee (Christian) again......her songs really touched my heart! http://www.cdbaby.com/cd/dianawee

And for once after donkey weeks/months, I cooked!!!! Simple meal, but the meal made me realise how much i miss my family!!!!! Eating alone is really no fun hey! And try eating alone every night.... :( prefer not to eat......Really miss my family loads.....I wish they were here with me......

Missing my friends too...miss the times we had....while i was back.....cow and coolies, plaza spura, starbucks, gosh....just miss miss and miss!!!!!

Look forward to my release from Perth Prison......

Good nite......

PS: A photo of me in my PJ......mum asked me to send her a photo.....so I took it using timer......ready to sleep.......

BBQ at Burswood Park 3 Jan 2005